Escape

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Recently, I am working on this picture. I don't want to do correction at the moment, just want to colour it.

I am going to express my uneasy feeling.

My friend told me that I always tried to escape from things that I dislike.

No need to think of, I totally agreed with him.

It is not a guilt to escape from things that you dislike. "To know what causes your sufferings, and try to find a way to prevent it." I find something like that in Buddhism. I am not trying to distort the true meaning, but they are somehow sharing the same purpose. Of course, Face what you dislike and overcome it would be perfect. Just if you can do it.

I have tried. Just for going to forums. That's the only thing that I try to not to escape from.

I love drawing. And I will go to the drawing section of a forum only.

You can find people from every type in a forum. It is not important that a person has good or bad skills. I am focused on their attitude towards the others. Maybe I am just so intolerant that I can't accept people just try to force others to accept what they said. And some of them have bad manner also.

"You will lose if you take that serious." This maybe right.

In the past, I post my works on forums not only wanted for improvement, but also praise. This sounds so naive, but that's true. But in fact, only one or two person would leave a comment. I was too weak... maybe. Though others receving meaningless praises, I still envied them.

At this moment, I still don't have much comment. I am not post for a praise, but to show others that I am still here.

I am not only facing others bad attitude, but also the frustrations when nobody cares about my existence.

I feel strange that why I choose to face things that are not important instead of things that are important?

I better face all I dislike.