Suicide

"Judgement Day" for the public examination is coming soon. It's scary but it will never be a problem that make me think of commiting suicide.

And I am not encouraging others to commit suicide also.

Something made me think about suicide. One day, I saw my friend's blog and found that his younger schoolmate commited suicide. I heard that he had tried many times. This time is succeed by chance. I am not focusing on why he wanted to be dead for so many times.

Beginning from primary school, the idea of not commit suicide is deeply sealed in my mind. The teachers seem to think that commit suicide is a bad thing. "Commit Suicide is not a solution, there will always be another solution" , "if you commit suicide, your parents and friends will become heartbroken" , "life is precious" , " you haven't try many things yet". I heard these messages for many times. If you ask me whether we should commit suicide, "no" will come out from my mouth involuntarily and my subconscious would just continue to make me speak the above reasons.

I was shocked when I saw the messages left by the foreigners. Then I think about suicide for the first time. Others shows their sympathy and understanding.

We don't know his situation. Life is full of tortures and difficulties, this would make one think that they are not living at the right time and place, it would be better to end the torture at the moment. Many people are having financial burden, many people are equiping with good skills, but nobody notices that.

Moreover, The journey for a life would never be easy, so we have to think of some reasons for ourselves to continue our journeys. Not everyone can find a reason. And not everyone can think of a "good" way overcome the problems.

Death is frightening for humans. That is a strong and natural feeling. Those committed suicide would probably think so. Once the suicide found that the feeling of desperation is stronger than the natural fear of death. Then commtting suicide maybe a easy way for them to overcome the problems.

What is right and what is wrong? I don't know. Nothing will always be true. Maybe we should not rate one's behavior, just do what we trust. He is dead. I am not hoping him reincarnate with a good life. I just hope he can quit the transmigration. No need to suffer from the pain from transmigration again.

I think I will not commit suicide as I still scare of die. Also, I can find a reason to live.